Years ago, I remember thinking that there was something missing in my life. I began looking for what would make me happy. Have you ever felt that way? Because I had moved around a lot as a child, I thought my restlessness was due to the fact that I had been living in the same town for a number of years. Maybe I was feeling that I needed to move. No, I knew that wasn’t it.
A vacation would be most welcome. That’s it, I just need to get away. Take a break. And even though I went away for a few weeks, I found that even though the vacation was fun, I still had some unease. My marriage was good. At the particular time that I’m referring to, my health was good. So what was it? I was searching for something, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. I was actually teaching a Bible study at the time, so I didn’t think it was a spiritual issue.
Have you ever thought, “What is wrong with me, my life is good, yet I’m not really content?” Believe me, most of us, at some point in our life, will have that or a similar feeling. After years of schooling, massive investment in your education, and possibly setting up your own clinic, you may be wondering, is dentistry for me? I’m restless; maybe I don’t like being a dentist.
There is a way to find the ease. Go inside of yourself. Now this may seem a little “woo-woo”! I get that, but I know what I’m talking about. Find somewhere physically to go, a place where you can just be with you and your thoughts. Take away the distractions of life, like cell phones, or a beeper (some still use them), with no TV in the background.
You have been on a path of work hard, apply, get into a good school, get good grades, study, work, apply, take your DAT, go to dental school, take boards, etc…then you either find a clinic to hire you or start from scratch and build a practice. Once you began practicing dentistry, it’s pretty much the same as what it took you to get there, just a little different focus. EXAM – TREAT – NEXT. AND AGAIN. ALL DAY LONG. Here’s the point I’m making – you have been on a path of performance, and now you need to learn to get comfortable with who you are and what you are doing.
Sometimes it may be on the golf course, or on a powder-filled mountain, or behind a boat skiing. Eventually you may have to learn to go inside for peace, without outside stimulation of your senses. For years, I would lose myself in a book. If you’re at all like my dentist husband, that won’t be for you. Maybe it’s watching a sporting event, or attending some great musical performance (we love concerts).
Learning how to be comfortable with you, and where you are in your life, may take some time to figure out. That’s okay – it’s worth the pursuit. For me, it’s by hiking, or simply a taking a walk. I’m also learning to meditate. Find what works for you. Pursue it, yet don’t be in a hurry. It will come.
From inside of you.
Strength – Pursue peace with determination, but not with a sense of something to conquer.
Dignity – Inner peace is your responsibility alone, no one else’s.
Grace – Being kind with yourself and forgiving yourself for whatever plagues you is a great place to begin your inner quest.